I have had this song stuck in my head for so long...*sings chorus*
'cause I am due for a miracle
I'm waiting for a sign
I'll stare straight into the sun
and I won't close my eyes
'til I understand or go blind
*/sings*
Sorry, I just couldn't help it. I had to listen and get it out. I was singing it out loud but I had to be careful of that because I don't think my mother would like that song. Heh. I also find that such a depressing song is a little bizarre for me to listen to when I am in such a tremendously good mood but uhm... oh well?
On I go. I was going to apologize for not writing as much but I have been writing a lot more than usual. But I don't think there has been as much content. Well thats because I have been developing relationships with some certain friends. It takes most of what I have to say out of me. But I have been so talkative lately that I am sure I can conjure up plenty to impart.
First, obviously no more computer hiatus. My messenger fast is also over. As I explained in my last entry, I have found my key, I have found the solution to my problem that drove me off messenger (and later off the computer) in the first place. Now that that has fallen into place, I don't feel the need to "fast" anymore. Whereas before, my instincts told me that I had to stay off messenger and the computer, as soon as I solved things, those instincts left. But so did the desire to spend as much time on the computer and messenger! I could be signed into messenger now but I am not! I don't feel like it. Well besides that it is Sunday and most everybody is in church around now anyway. HA! But I do find it interesting that this desire dissipated like it did. Following suit. Does it surprise me? No. Not at all...
To joy, nothing is surprising
~A Swiftly Tilting Planet by Madeline L'Engle.
It's the truth. I am dwelling in so much joy right now, and nothing is really that surprising to me. Somehow I expect things the way they are. It just seems...right... This is extremely hard to translate into words. I just can't. But nothing really surprises me...that is all I know...
You know, my mind really isn't here. I can't really write without music but today it is distracting me terribly and I am thinking of a zillion other things I could do. A zillion other ways to occupy my time. Not to say that I don't like to occupy it this way, but just to say that today I don't quite feel like writing much. I need to go do some thinking. Some shuffling. Some reading. Some listening. Some just plain being. I have the chance to do so undisturbed at the moment so I shall...