I seriously believe that I jinxed myself with that last entry. All that I said of a person one trusts greatly and whom one goes to for support eventually finally hurting you and then having no one for support. It has, already, bounced back and come true for me. After I have scarcely been thinking of it, it happens.
I really couldn't speak of this to others. I really couldn't. So here I am to huddle on my bed and sob for being so upset and hurt over this, with no one to comfort me.