2004-09-16
Coherence Is Impossible But Writing Is Necessary
hearing: nothing
reading: The Invisible Man by H.G. Wells
feeling: chaotic, spastic, scattered, edging insanity
Look here, look in, on my mind on my mind, peer inside, deep inside...
The Chaos.
- Desperate dreams (harbingers of tears) which creep up unwelcome in the night...
- Exhaustion and resulting dizziness...
- Anger...
- Frustration...
- Clutter...
- Longing...
- Destruction...
- Pangloss's [ridiculous] optimism...
- John Locke, The Constitution and an unwritten political science paper...
- Sci Fi stories by H.G. Wells...
- Back aches...
- Daydreams of wide open sky and fresh clean air and fluffy clouds and seclusion and freedom and no obligations or responsibilities...
- Realities of prison bars and cages and rank air and stifling heat...
- Unjust weavings of fate (a cop out extreme...the easiest way to speak of the messes we make and objects we break)...
- Drifting ships...
- Inability to go back to the ways I used to know...
- I want to go back
But the places that used to fit me
Cannot hold the things I�ve learned
Those roads were closed off to me
While my back was turned - Cursing (even mild...in any language or slang) sounds extremely moranic...not cool...(realization...teaching myself again)...
- Kaleidoscopic messy psyche...
- Lack of hunger and accidental weight loss...
- and Extreme thirst...